And I don’t me I am getting there. Each day I become weaker.. another cutting incident last night, a hurtful plan put out there, and this morning I couldn’t even get through a day at work and being aroind people. I left after 2 hours.. I cancelled my therapy and just feel like my hole is quicksand. I used to be so strong.. I could handle anything.. fight for everything and now I can’t even get throjgh a workday. IM sure some are getting sarisfaction watching me slowly die inside.. its what I deserve for being ill and weak