Why cant you just be happy they say…

Have you ever just woke up one day and there it was for no reason that you can place. Depression.. It really sucks, and I typically just keep to myself when it happens. I still work on the fact that I can be accepted for who I am even with this disease. I don’t like it, don’t want it but don’t have a choice. Yeah, I can slap on my mask that I wear in these times. And I have done it so many times I feel like a pro. I think I end up depressing myself even more trying to figure out why it is there in the first place. I am in a good point in my life compared to where I was. I have a better support group of friends and family, who encourage instead of influence me, so many who loves me unconditionally (most of the time) and so much to be thankful for. Like doing exactly what I was told I couldn’t and that is to make it on my own. I work my ass off but I get it done. I have a job I love, even when I want to hate it.. lol. I have so much good going on, so why can’t the depression see that and go away.. I guess its wishful thinking. It goes back to the “I wish you would cheer up or just be happy” photo I posted. Because I myself say that to myself. It makes me angry.
It took me up until this year to really learn how to cope with these episodes. To realize I am not alone in the world of depression, At the same time I have so many people going through stuff that makes depression seem petty, like its something that shouldn’t even be a complaint. IDK I guess I am rambling on. Long story short… I HATE DEPRESSION. And I hate that how others treated me so negative that I still do it to myself because thats how it was always done, even with a better understanding its hard to not think no one wants me around

Author: Dana Gidner-Kristal

perfectly imperfect

Spill your brains...

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