Tumultuous (updated 9:04pm)

I don’t even know how to explain the last 20 hours, but it has all left me feeling a little melancholy.  As I stated I have been having the problems with my vision loss more and more frequently.  Lets say, I can not see more than I can see.  This post will take a few settings and coming back to.

— I finally contacted my Neurologist office and left a message for the doctor.  Yesterday around 4:37 I get a call from the office stating that the doctor wants me to get in for a MRI and a MRA of my head as soon as possible with the vision loss as it is serious.  Me thinking ‘Okay, I can do it tomorrow.  I mean its almost 5:00?  when the place will be closing’  So, I tell them that is fine and hang up going about my work.  Not even any sooner than I put my phone down and open an email my phone rings again. The imaging place is already calling and I answered.  They told me that my Doctors office just called and I needed to get over there right now to have the scan done.  I explained it would be at least 5:15 to drive that distance. They said that was fine I needed to get there now.   Well, alright-y then!  So, I very gingerly drove over there.  It was the first time in a long time I have driven with my vision like that, or worse.  I could not even read the highway signs.   This was actually the first time I have left my house since last Saturday.  Hell, I think I have only left my bedroom times all week.. haha.  I am not hating.

—  This morning I get a call around 6:19 am from my mother.  She says she needs me to calm her down.   I asked her what was up and she said my brother totaled his motorcycle.  My heart dropped as I remembered having that call once before with Flash.  I paused and just remembered I needed to keep her calm.   I asked if he was okay and she said he was the one who called her.  A huge sigh of relief came over me as I asked her what happened. A guy had pulled out in front of him and he T-Boned the guy.
CarMotorcycleaccidentHe was doing 60 on his bike.  I hate hearing all of the its the motorcycle riders/Its the people on the roads.. finger-pointing.  Its both ways.  Both just need to pay attention and these things could be prevented.   I am just glad my brother only sustained the injuries he did and is going to be okay and lived through this to tell about it.  His bike and RIP.  And he is alive.  Drive Safe, Stay focused on the road and be alert of all that is around you everyone.

(Added: after talking to my mom. The driver ran a yellow blinking light. My brother had no time to even lay the bike especially at his speed. The extent of this damage was mostly from his body hitting the vehicle. The red on the ground is not transmissionfluid or any vehicle/cycle fluids. Its my brothers blood. He actually went through the passenger windo via breaking it, not by it being rolled down, might I add.  He went unconscious briefly.  Hes more banged up than he said to be.  He may have a broken tailbone, head concusion, and broken ribs.  His wife is going to wake him every 2 hours and get him back to the ER hopefully if she can, if needed.  ) 

Now, I of course being me.. Text him and said, “Love ya, EvelKnievel.  Glad you ar okay. ( for the most part! It could have been much worse) ”  I then did text his wife to if she needed me at the hospital.  Later I set him a rext to say “I keep hearing Dad calling you on the phone. “Hey Attila, you know.. You could have used the brakes. You didn’t have to use the vehicle to stop the bike” or some corny wise ass joke.. 😉 ❤️🙂 ”

— And now onto, the rest of the news that has transpired while I have been typing.  My Doctors office called.  They don’t see anything on the scans that were done yesterday.  The doctor asked about when my last eye exam was, explained that I had that done for this exact reason and that is not the cause.  The hospital did a CT scan and that there is nothing going on in my sinus area to cause anything in means of my headaches or vision.  So $1600 yesterday for a scan that I asked the doctor to do in November when I had met my deductible and out of pocket so it would not cost anything.  Now, he would like me to go see him Monday.  For what?   Sit and him talk to me for 15 minutes and then he will charge me another $200 or so from my pocket for nothing.  As weird as it probably sounds I wished they would have found something just so they would have something to fix and know what we need to work on.  Feeling blind sucks.  Its a lonely feeling.   No one can even relate to what is going on right now.   After they called I just wanted to sit and cry but, I don’t really do that anymore.  Even when I want to.. tears don’t fall.  I don’t know.. It is what it is.  Tomorrow I have to try to get out and socialize and go to my sister in law’s baby shower.  My Niece is due in a month – month and a half.


 

PS:

In the TV world are is your Weekend Suggestions:  If you have not checked out a tv show called Mr. Robot well…  I recommend it.!! Maybe because I can relate to Elliot, the introvert, cyber-security ‘tech’, story line.  Or maybe its Christian Slater.. haha.. still a good show.  I have really gotten hooked on it.  And then, Blacklist came back yesterday.  This weekend also starts the Playoffs of the NHL and the All Star game of the NHL.

 

THOUGHT OF A FEW OF YOU AND WANTED TO SHARE THIS QUOTE:
ONE AWESOME THING ABOUT EEYORE IS THAT EVEN THOUGH HE IS BASICALLY CLINICALLY DEPRESSED, HE STILL GETS INVITED TO PARTICIPATE IN ADVENTURE AND SHENANIGANS WITH ALL OF HIS FRIENDS. AND THEY NEVER EXPECT HIM TO PRETEND TO FEEL HAPPY, THEY LOVE HIM ANYWAY, AND THEY NEVER LEAVE HIM BEHIND OR ASK HIM TO CHANGE.

Author: Dana Gidner-Kristal

perfectly imperfect

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