So, how am I doing? Well, better? Today was a day where I didn’t feel like getting out of bed and sure as hell didn’t want to go to the office or deal with people. The fact that I rolled over to the love of my life and knowing that my favorite little human turns 4 today at least got me out of bed and working from home though. The new medication does seem to be helping A LOT, but I still have some moments and issues with the anxiety build up. But mood wise it’s been better.
My life is great. I am still in awe and can’t believe that I am soon to be ‘officially’ engaged, much less to think I will be married again. But it makes me the happiest woman in the world because of who I will have by my side for the rest of our lives. This coming from someone who used to say ‘Marriage is just a piece of paper’ and had one man suddenly change that vision to ‘if your goal isn’t marriage then why were you in the relationships to begin with’ and seeing how much time I wasted love in all the wrong places. Thinking how in a blink of an eye someone magical comes along, when you’re not looking. Remembering 3 years ago me telling my mother I was going to grow old with my cat and dog and I was happy with that love in life. To seeing that I could have missed this ONE opportunity with my perfect match. The one who like me may not be perfect but we fit perfectly.
In 3 weeks, the 3 of us will be taking a big trip to Hawaii. Much needed for us all I believe. It will be good time away, good ‘family’ and relaxation time. Much needed and deserved. And that’s where life is now. ❤️
Here I am to write memories so I can always reflect on them, good, bad or indifferent. But all me, all my life.