Just when I think I am getting better with the depressive states and anxiety, today feels like I was hit by a bag of it. For no reason what so ever I feel like I could cry, I want to just crawl back in bed. A sudden feeling of loneliness has taken over, from the moment I woke up. I’m irritable to the point that every user I speak to with work is on my last nerve, I feel like there is a ton of bricks sitting on my chest. I know this is temporary and probably played upon by the weather being gloomy, the home bound ness, stress, expectations, and just my brain in general.
I know I will pull over the hump again as I always do. There is a new hour ahead of me, and several ahead of that, along with new days. I sit here and try to relax via watching the fish swim, having the dog cuddle with me, and best of all.. looking in the other room and seeing my best friend there, and knowing in reality, I am not alone at all. Also knowing that for a change I have a partner whine I can be 100% me no matter how I am feeling and I am still accepted and loved. These are the things that tell me to keep on keeping on, and not to isolate no matter how much I want to so this can pass. I just have to believe in myself, I mean after all, I have believed in crazier things..
A Little Corner of Sanity 