Sometimes I wonder, and sometimes I wander.. the later part usually means I am lost or geocaching.. haha.
But I feel like certain people are embarrassed by me. Embarrassed by my words, by things I write or say, or even do. I do nothing but be myself. I love hard and deep. I have a passion in life for those things, and at times it feels as if its why I am here. What my purpose is. Its not anything I am embarrassed or ashamed by, within myself.
I guess for some its too much, but thats a lot of the times why I am quiet, why I come here to speak with myself. ,(well that and you get funny looks if you talk to yourself aloud)
I also overthink, A LOT. I am my hardest critic. I have been unhappy with my physic and they way I look for a few months now as I am sure my weight gain has alot to do with my meds. I can’t get off them, and changing them can make it worse. But, I will never be unhappy with my internal beauty.