I don’t get this feeling as much as I used to but when I do it makes up for it I guess.
Just a feeling that everything is misaligned and out of sorts. Like everything that matters that I want close is a magnet, except it’s pulling away instead of being drawn to.
A feeling like something is trying to wedge my life. Usually it’s the dog, but not this time, she’s in the other room.
I know its me, hell it always is, right. My crazy mind that runs 30/7. But it still suck and it sucks to feel like it’s sucking everything out of me, feeling empty and alone.
You try to talk, to see if that brings out anything and your words fall silent and invisible. Reaching for some reassurance. Some help in trying to figure it out and explain.
And how do you allow people to help when you can’t explain even to yourself what’s wrong. When there is no rhyme or reason and the more you try to figure it out the more alone you feel.