4 years ago, it was a day I remember. I was so tired and yet so excited and nervous. As I got dressed and ready to go for what I didn’t know at the time was going to be the start to the rest of my life.
It was our first date to have dinner at SaltGrass in Grapevine. And I almost blew it, with the exhaustion, at which time I was working 2 jobs. I wasn’t quite myself and was a little quiet, so he did question going any further in the dating process. But, to this day, I can at least speak for myself when I say I am glad he did.
I won’t blow smoke up everyone’s ass and say we have a fairytale romance. But I will say what we have is real. We have our ups and downs. We have our disagreements and we work through them. Something I can honestly say is real, that I never had before. We don’t have fights, we have disagreements, we don’t raise our voices, we talk. When things are good, We have fun together and we laugh together. We have had some amazing times and vacations that have made great memories and those good times are what are to be cherished and remembered through all of time.
I, to this day, still fall in love with him all over again. I still send him texts just as I have from day one when we started dating to tell him I am thinking of him and that I love him, and even though we work from home as if we are in office to tell him good morning, I still feel the love I felt for him from day one, and am still smitten by him to this day. With all that said, We have decided that we want to spend the rest of our lives together, someday he wants to make me his wife so we can continue to grow together. To continue learning each other.
Let’s face it, in truth, we never really know every inch of every person, no matter how long we are with them. But, I know for myself, I want to spend every day learning and each day growing, with him by my side. I want the good and the bad, the happy and the sad. I want to give him the opportunities to hurt me and the trust that he won’t. I want his arms to always be the ones I have to run to when I need an embrace. I want his ears to be the first I speak to when I have news to tell.
I can hope that each year I am still the one he chooses as well, but I also always want his happiness to be where he needs it to be, and if I am not it, then my heart would understand and know that it is his happiness that was the most important to me. That is where my level of love is for him, is in his happiness, no matter where I am in his life. But for this year, I am glad to be a part of it.