As we approach a new year…

As 2022 approaches, there’s not much to be said. We survived! It’s another year that taught me more about life. It threw me some challenges & it was this thing we call .. LIFE. We had a great vacation in the summer to Yellowstone. We got a new dog. Kept our jobs through the year. There’s a roof over our heads. We lost a few throughout the year, and we were shown to truly cherish those in our lives. COVID still wrecked havoc, while some things returned to almost normal. The holidays came and went with a 99.999999% success rate. Santa brought me coal this year and it was used to start the wood in the smoker to smoke a turkey, which turned out great! But most of all, it is a year that came and went, and in the end of it I am here and I am still me. All I can say is this:

Don’t expect the new year new me bullshit, hasn’t happened yet. While with each year, I become a minimally better version of myself, a stronger version of myself with some self improvements, You still get 98% of the same me. I will still be the same imperfect, flawed, sarcastic, sometimes humorous (at least I think I am funny), woman I have been for years. At the end of each day, week, month and yes.. year… I am who I am, and I am okay with that. I have worked hard to become as strong as I can be. I have worked hard to even know that it is okay to be weak when I fall short of being as strong as I can be. At the end of each day, Its still who I am.

I still have my flaw of trying to fix everything. I still forget that sometimes I am not a super powered woman with some sort of magic in my pocket. I still forget at times that my happiness is important too, before anyone else’s. I still put everyone else’s needs and wants before my own. I am the giver so everyone else can be the receivers, and sometimes, just takers in life. And while some flaws could use some work and I am taking the steps to work on the major flaws, they will always be the ounces that will remain deep down and that’s the cold hard fact of the truth of it all. I will always be me.

I will still over think, I will still care too much on certain things. I will still get depressed at times. I will still be over anxious on things. Some days I may shut down. I won’t always speak when I need to or should. There may be days I am happy with life and there may be days I am over taken with sadness, and sometimes I won’t know why. Some days I may feel human and some days I may not. And these are the parts of me that are a definite part of me that will never change for a new me, they will always be the same me. They will always be a part of me that no one will ever totally get but me, and I am okay with that, I have learned to love even the darkest parts of me, I have learned to love me for me through the good, through the bad and through the indifferent, year after year and I will continue to do so in 2022. So, with that I say.. Here’s to a new year and the same ME!

I wish you all peace, love and joy! Blah blah blah.. Screw that!

I wish you all lots of Sex, Booze, Orgasms and that you all get a pet Unicorn and a new puppy … Okay.. Okay… I will keep it realistic and I hope you win the lotto and take a good vacation, whichever works best for you, you choose.

Happy New Year, All!

Author: Dana Gidner-Kristal

perfectly imperfect

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